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Sep 11

Taking Control of My Depression

Posted By iamincontrol | September 11, 2014

taking control of my depression
By Jacob

Sometimes things are hard. For me, things were the hardest during my freshman year of college. I was in a city where I didn’t know anyone, starting a major that was very difficult and stressful, away from most everyone I loved and all my friends. I felt alone. It was at this time that I began struggling with real depression issues. Depression and social anxiety were things I had struggled with in high school, but the transition to college was very difficult for me. At times it left me wondering whether or not I was ever going to be able to get out of the loneliness and stress and be happy again.

I would stay in bed for days at a time, unable to physically or mentally get myself ready to go out into the world and interact with people who seemed to have not a care in the world or anything wrong in their lives. It was hard for me to watch everyone carry on with their lives and be involved and happy and busy and think about myself, feeling like I had nobody and nothing to care about.

This is a feeling I had for a long time, and decided one day that I had had it. I realized that nobody has anything figured out, and that the only way to make yourself happy is to do what you want to do and find things that excite you. I changed my major to something I was interested in, I joined clubs on campus that brought people similar to me into my social circles, I started going out on weekends and saying hello to strangers in the hallways. It was a very difficult thing for me to do, to get involved and to find things I enjoyed to keep me motivated to go about my day-to-day life. But sometimes all the little things you do for yourself help you find out that you are truly cared about and are truly valuable in more ways than you know.